every now and then i have this revelation where i’m like, “hey, i don’t have anything to be anxious about right now! cool!” and as soon as that thought enters my brain i start thinking of things i should be worrying about and then i start worrying about those things and that’s why i’m on my way to an early grave
“Wherever perfectionism is driving, shame is riding shotgun. Perfectionism is not about healthy striving, which you see all the time in successful leaders, it’s not about trying to set goals and being the best we can be, perfectionism is basically a cognitive behavioral process that says if I look perfect, work perfect, and do everything perfectly, I can avoid shame, ridicule, and criticism. It’s a defense mechanism.”"Why Doing Awesome Work Means Making Yourself Vulnerable"
|First day of chem labs:||uses gloves and goggles to measure distilled water|
|Last day of chem labs:||spills silver nitrate all over hand and wipes it on pants|